Flesh On Flesh.

Flesh on flesh. Eyes watch eyes

Following fingers round curvatures. Caressing skin.

Skin on skin. Flesh in flesh.

A gin-sung-dream –

Silent utterances from the dark-side of a candlestick.

An unsung overture to Nature’s greatest gift

And Nature’s perfect curse.

Lips pursed open, speechless. Breathless.

Wide-white eyes scream STOP. blink. GO ON.

Glances flash between the flickers of candlelight ,

Meeting unknown looks in the black. Bodies

Embrace, writing words that have their own

Music. Heard only by its two composers.

Everywhere the other wishes to be –

Vivacity. Revelling in promiscuity.

Obscurity. Strangers share a warmth

As old as the ages.

A wafer-thin knife-edge of meaning.

Gin-song dreaming. An opaque tonic

For loneliness.

Hands in hands, heart fleeting.

The perfect curse of Man

In the stroking of skin.

Later, a vague sound of water, a towel

A drawer closing – a door latch clicks.

The world floods back.

Through the curtains,

Through the drainpipes

Your fleeting heart sheepishly returns,

Aching like a hangover.

Too much gin.

The momentary tonic wears off.

Heart in hand,

Hand to head.

Candlelit premonitions return.

Heated flesh. Arching backs.

Fingers through hair…

Salty fingers through oily hair and

Blood-red-wine lipstick smudges and

A singeing waxy smell makes you reel

To the window for air.

And there you are again,

In the middle of a city that knows you

More than your Alcoholic Lover,

A Melancholic Mother to all your needs,

Except the one you tried to soothe

A few hours back.

The one you pine for.

The one you lack.

Oh, this Humdrum City

Rushing you, with your heart in your hand, off your feet.

And your heart in the street

And the gin in your glass

Whenever you meet

Whoever it is that might

Make you complete…

A vague sound of water, a towel,

A candle extinguished, a door hinge creeks.

Wafer-thin. Flesh on flesh.

A belt buckle rings, a zip

A drawer closing, a door latch clicks.

The door latch clicks.

The door latch clicks.

New Beginnings.

Am I not your root, your source?
Do I not bite into your being?
Did I not draw you from the depths of Hell,
Out into the vast light of atmospheric health
To be born of more solid stuff, oh Auburn Queen of Fall?

Before you plunged us both back
We were made of the same solid stuff, the same self.
We were one once, you and I.

I traded in God for the first you,
Shortly after time began.
I felt your eyes upon me, oh Amphetamine Queen of all I've seen,
And all the places I have been since time immemorial.
Yet now, now alas, for this grey shadow,
Once a man, would sign any Faustian pact again,
And act protagonist to any damned Marlowian tragedy!

Tortured with optical touches
And words unsaid.
The composer of commotion strange
Inside a prelapsarian breast
Has left me fraught throughout the ages.
And still, I'd fall nine more satanic days through Chaos pure,
If it meant landing any closer to you.

Let us go back to Paradise, you and I.
What is lost can surely be regained.
Here's to new beginnings...

Had we but world enough, and time,

(And all was fair in love and war,)

To read the mariner's ancient rime,

And know what stout Cortez first saw,

Perhaps then we would understand

What Sophocles heard upon the dark Aegean;

And how Agamemnon felt.

Or when, on Dover's cobbled beach

Arnold had his nation knelt

In a moment's soul's reflection.

Plath ate her men like air.

Tantalus served the gods his son.

But to dine with literary kings and queens,

And share their feast, is an honor I've yet won.

Mid-Summer Dance

The next time you go running in circles daydreaming, take me with you.

Round and round and round and round

Until the sky clears, clouds disperse on the ocean,

Dancing.

On unswept autumn leaves.

On a hillside with the heavens open - soaking you to the skin.

A field of long grass in morning mist, of corn at sunset.

Flowers in your hair, linen round your shoulders, round your waist,

Freckles swimming in flushed cheeks, auburn hair

Whipping round your face. Smiling, laughing,

Round and round you race, chasing down your dreams,

Leaving normality behind. Up you soar

To dizzying heights,

Forgetting sleep on summer nights.

Tired.

You write. The table moves rhythmically.

Sip hot chocolate. Pages scattered.

A candle burns, shadows flicker across

Your face. Concentrate.

Inky blue fingers, bic lighters. Lucky Strikes.

You are studious. Hands in sleeves.

Rosy lips, hidden behind your shawl.

Velvet jacket. Passionate.

Your hand writing is bold, round

Friendly but forceful - excited or in a hurry?

You tear pages apart. Swear, and write on.

The only blank page is your face.

You write with your eyes.

Expression impossible to detect.

What do you think?

I want to know you. How will this end?

I will learn how to read you.

Know you. Second guess you.

Where will you be? I hope.

Fingers crossed.

To be scared, terrified of repetition.

Rehabilitation.

Finally I am tired. You have worn me out.

Mind Body and Soul.

Wonderful exhaustion.

But your presence keeps me awake.

Short sighs - of love ( I hope )

Just audible over your pen scratching doggedly.

Sleeves on paper edges. Leaves rustling. Sandpaper.

Kiss me again Ridiculous Girl. You pause,

Stroke my hair - an eternity of navy blues,

Greys and strawberry cheeks.

Paint in my hair. Sugar at the bottom of my cup.

I miss you, though you sit in front of me.

Bushfire Season

My feet sweat, my shoulders burn

But I am indifferent.

Nature plays around me.

Close your eyes. The last thing you see

is a white butterfly dance past the tree-line

into oblivion blue.

Bush leaves crackle above you in branches

and below you, let loose through brittle grass.

A light wind conducts a symphony in which

Each shrub plays a part.

Each dry branch, kindling ready to explode,

Itching to snap its dangerously perfect note.

Thorns whistle sharply - reeds hiss and hum.

Every breeze is a clown, taking up instruments

And jostling melodies to play all at once.

The grass rushes to its queue, dry as a bone.

Leaves follow behind in vague harmonies.

I wait on the edge of an eventful storm.

The sky is blue.

A storm of events - something big,

Behind the horizon, behind the mirage.

A rhino.

A microlite .

Electric fences, purring.

A wan nation celebrates, then groans behind the hills.

Natures orchestra sings to no one in particular

To T. (Part I.)

A lyrical scarf to warm your throat,

And stay up with you on cold winter nights.

- Keeps you going, keeps you sweet,

Alive and merry.

Relieves you, revives you, releases a smile.

Complimenting the stars, the moon.

And tobacco on your lips.

Or Sunrise, early showers, soapy skin

- Waiting in the morning to greet you gently.

Takes you to bed, where it keeps your body warm.

Snug –

While lavender soothes the little of your being it cannot.

Reflecting emotion. Moods.

Mild, sweet, milky.

Bitter, dark, hot.

Black or white.

Satisfying the palette.

Settling your stomach,

Quenching a dry mouth.

Hospitable. Welcoming. Kind.

An Icebreaker.

An offering.

Pulling down barriers.

Instructing courage, calming fear –

Spiders in life’s web,

Guard dogs in foreign countries,

And smoky kitchens are overcome.

- Strength, heart and peace of mind rebuilt.

Stirs thought as a spoon stirs sugar –

Feeding a fire, a flame – billows to a weary mind,

Wind to lifeless sails. Perpetual motion.

Washing motivation into your soul

Somewhere between breakfast and lunch.

The afternoon’s unsuspecting catalyst.

Preserving optimism.

A fifth hope. Tshepo.

Encouraging self-erudition. Articulation.

Translating and unwinding complex language.

For two and a half minutes, the world is a simple place.

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